I'm cutting and pasting my birth story below with two warnings. It is the
general birth story that I wrote up for friends/family where I didn't use
hypnobabies lingo so there are certain terms that I know we avoid in our
hypnosis preparation. The other thing is that my birth didn't go as planned.
We had to move from a birth center (freestanding, ran by a nurse midwife) to a
hospital because of failure to progress. My baby was posterior and her head got
caught sort of sideways in my pelvis. As a first-time mom I was able to birth
her posterior (attempts to turn her didn't work) and they used a vacuum at the
end (her heart rate went scary low) and only had minimal tearing. Hypnosis
really helped me stay calm especially during the change to the hospital when
docs were running around telling me I would have to have a c-section. Hypnosis
also helped birthing feel great until she got fairly stuck with her head
sideways and body posterior and at that point I WAS in pain, but I think it was
my body's way of saying, "There's something wrong here." We tried EVERYTHING to
turn her-belly lifting, all sorts of positions (I was only on my back the last
few minutes of delivery), squatting, tub, etc. with no luck. I was so
disapointed we couldn't have our beautiful, peaceful birth center birth with our
wonderful midwife. BUT...all things considered I had a vaginal delivery, I
labored at the birth center, and have a BEAUTIFUL healthy baby girl.
Lindsey
Birth story below:
I began having contractions at around 11 pm on 4/13. We went to bed but I woke
up at 4 am unable to sleep through them anymore. We had contractions at home
until about 8:30 am and we went to the birth center at 9 am. They checked me
and I was already at 5-6 centimeters. I labored in the pool, walking around,
squatting. At one point Ruth (my midwife) told me the baby was likely posterior
so the more I moved the more it would encourage her to rotate into the more
favorable anterior position. At 11 am I was 7 centimeters but feeling the
unbearable urge to push. I breathed through that urge and continued to work
through midafternoon. At that point, Ruth broke my bag of waters in an attempt
to move things along as I hadn't dilated any further probably due to the
posterior position. Ruth also reached in and rotated the baby inside of me but
unfortunately Chloe rotated back to the more difficult and painful to labor
posterior position. By 4 pm I was a bit out of my mind. I had been laboring
since at least 4 that morning, since around 11 am I had been having contractions
that were 2-3 minutes apart with the urge to push that I had to ignore, and at 4
pm I still had not dilated any further than 7 cm. The baby was not only
posterior, but Ruth said it felt like her head was lodged somewhat sideways and
that was likely why I wasn't progressing. Ruth told me that she would be ok
with me trying for another hour but if I hadn't progressed we would need to go
to the hospital-in rush hour traffic.
The last thing I wanted to do was leave the birth center but I knew
something had to change because I was exhausted and feeling overwhelmed. Not
only did I want Ruth to catch the baby but a car ride sounded like torture. We
chose to go to UC Davis medical center right then. We followed Ruth and she
thankfully stayed with us for the next three hours at the hospital. They
checked us in and started talking c-section and the OB's crutch "inadequate
pelvis." When the docs left the room Ruth assured us that it was very likely
that due to the stress of the car ride my contractions had weakened and baby had
weakened a bit but once we got settled things would likely pick up. She was
absolutely right. I still labored without pain meds (they tried fentanyl but it
didn't do a damn thing) until the epidural was placed and "took" at about 7:30
pm. I hate to say it but I was so relieved to get it. They gave me some
pitocin and things started to move along.
By 9:45 pm I was fully dilated and ready to push. I was grateful the
nurse asked if I was willing to try positions other than laying down and with
hers and Jon's help I tried hands and knees, modified squatting (stupid,
wonderful epidural!) and some side lying positions. I was assured that baby was
moving down with each push and I was doing well, but baby wasn't doing so well.
Her heart kept slowing down at an alarming level and they asked me to sit out
every other contraction. We were getting really close to her entrance and her
heartrate kept dropping alarmingly. All of a sudden there was a ton of activity
and I heard them mention vacuum. That made me doubly resolved to get her out
NOW. A NICU team was standing by because she passed meconium. They put the
vacuum on and I pushed her out, the vacuum helped the last little bit but the OB
told me that overall it was me that pushed her out. In fact, they documented
the vacuum was only on 20 seconds total. She was born posterior, ie "sunny side
up" or facing the wrong way. She was born at 11 pm on the dot on 4/14. I was
later told that any woman who can deliver that way has a hell of a pelvis that
is in no way inadequate.
They immediately took her to the NICU table and suctioned out great
quantities of meconium. Jon looked so worried but kept going back and forth
between her and I. Cheryl reassured me they couldn't let her cry because she
could inhale meconium. I heard somebody say, "She's fighting the tube" and Jon
say, "She gets that from her mom." Eventually I heard a strong cry. They
brought her two me for only a moment before taking her to the NICU for more
treatment and observation. Jon went with her. I had a small 2nd degree tear
which I understand is nothing for a posterior baby born with a vacuum
extraction.
It was the worst feeling in the world being away from her for the next
FOUR HOURS while she was in the NICU after having her safe within me for 42
weeks. But Jon was with her the whole time and refused to allow her to be
observed in a bassinette and instead held her for the two hours they insisted
she stay. Jon also insisted they wake up the attending doctor because he wanted
her released to be with me ASAP. Jon brought her in to me at around 3:30 am and
we all hugged and cried and tried to get her to breastfeed right then, which she
did. It was a rough start and we didn't get to have the gentle birth center
birth we had hoped for but thankfully Ruth was so knowledgable and wise and got
us to the hospital, helped us labor at her center as long as possible avoiding a
c-section, and our beautiful baby girl is here.
Afterwards, I felt utterly transformed. I had never felt so powerful and
powerless at the same time. I had never been so scared and so brave at the same
time. I loved my husband more than I thought I could love any other person and
the love I feel for my baby girl I have no words to express. It was an amazing,
wonderful, awful, beautiful, transformative experience. I am so glad I had that
journey to experience and also glad it's over and we're starting the next part
of the journey together.